Day 2: OK, so after 13 straight hour in a property investment course, I have learnt more useful information in terms of actually improving my capacity to build wealth and increase my income than I have over 20 years of playing on the safe side of the street and maintaining a whole bunch of limiting self beliefs … My brain (and heart) are so full of knowledge, possibilities … and questions that I am wired with exhaustion. Have to be back at the course tomorrow at 7.00am … on a Sunday … which means I don’t get to do my Sunday run with my FREO FRAGGers 😦
In the meantime, I better get some sleep after doing the homework set for tonight …
A quick post before I try to sleep. Huge day, first of a three day property investment seminar that I am going to … Part of my bigger journey of growth. Then took my girls to see Percy Jackson and the Sea of Monsters … A great Friday night flick. A bit of Facebook catch up to find I won a little competition by writing a quick tale about the pitfalls of public transport. Hoping to drift off to sleep reading Toni Jordan’s “Fall Girl”. I had the pleasure of meeting Toni at last week’s Big Sky Writers Festival in Geraldton … And am chuffed to have read what she wrote in my signed copy of her book … Inspiration 101!
I have made the decision to enroll in a course of study as I am really serious about developing myself as a writer, and know just from my forays into the area that there is so much I don’t know about how to “be” a writer. Not only that, but wow, there is so much I don’t know about how to find out how to be a writer … what a minefield of information to absorb! I am so rusty am I when it comes to navigating the various information sources about tertiary education – like what if any income support is available … does Austudy even exist anymore, or can I get a scholarship? I have spoken to so many different people at the University of Western Australia, and still am not clear about so many things. I am a total control freak when it comes to knowledge, in that I hate not having it. Maybe another incarnation of Ms Ego is Ms Smarty-Pants (note her very soy latte sipping oh-so-middle-class double-barreled name)?
So I am throwing it out to my many followers (all three of you) … how do I do this, where do I start and who do I talk to? Apart from UWA, which I would very much like to attend, are there other options for me in Perth?
In the meantime, apparently it is only half an hour until I have to torture myself at PT. I wonder what awfulness my trainer has in store for me today. Of course, Ms Smarty-Pants is telling me that I should blow that off and add a piece of organic lemon cheesecake to accompany said soy latte,
The thing about “being” a writer … which I am of course, is that despite having an almost primal need to take myself on this bizarre journey out of the safety and security of 9 – 5 humdrum (with the goal to actually earning a living from my craft) … is that my rather annoying and very insecure ego wants to send me right back there. To do this, she employs all manner of crazy tactics – avoidance, procrastination and simply orchestrating moments of sheer terror that grips my chest like a vice. She tells me that I can’t do this and I need to go back to “real work”. My ego is terrific at self sabotage – she does this in other areas too … like skipping … when my personal trainer yells at her, she just gets madder and trips up my feet even more!
My ego is a flighty bitch who can’t settle on anything, not even a simple background for a blog. Now, how do I tell Ms Ego that she needs to “shoosh her beans”, otherwise that’s what we will all be eating – beans? As the purpose of my writing is to pursue my passion whilst at the same time support my family, there is work to be done.
I know that to quiet Ms Ego, I need to invite Ms Certainty and Ms Determined to the front of the room, and give them the floor. So … without further ado, would you please make them welcome …